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nwhikerI'm starting to see patterns of what I can control and what I can make better.
There is some level of depression I'm just going to have to deal with for a while. It's ongoing and I can't fix it (last time I tried, I gained 50lbs that of course didn't come off. I'd rather live with the depression, thanks, I'm fat enough already).
What I can fix is the anxiety that leads to punctual panic and feeling miserable.
Because once the girls, all pretty and happy, were dropped off at prom, and I was done with the getting ready, the coordinating, the talking with parents, the precise timing, and it was just me and dh at the Ballard Locks watching boats and birds and seals? The sick, miserable, heavy lump of dread was gone, and I was back to a state that I can hold.
Photos later. So cute, my girlie.
There is some level of depression I'm just going to have to deal with for a while. It's ongoing and I can't fix it (last time I tried, I gained 50lbs that of course didn't come off. I'd rather live with the depression, thanks, I'm fat enough already).
What I can fix is the anxiety that leads to punctual panic and feeling miserable.
Because once the girls, all pretty and happy, were dropped off at prom, and I was done with the getting ready, the coordinating, the talking with parents, the precise timing, and it was just me and dh at the Ballard Locks watching boats and birds and seals? The sick, miserable, heavy lump of dread was gone, and I was back to a state that I can hold.
Photos later. So cute, my girlie.
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