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Wow, that didn't go well. Had a phone screen for a Research Tech II position this morning. Was told in not so many words that I'd never get a RT II position because I didn't have any experience, and no, education does not substitute (I guess that MS was useless), and good luck finding an RT I position because while they usually only require a BS, PIs want young people straight out of college who want to pursue a PhD. And yes, he said young people straight out of college, which I am clearly not. FML

It's pretty clear that I'm not going to find a low-level research job. The only others jobs I've been seeing around are shift work, which I was hoping not to have to do. Most of those have the typical must be able to carry 50lbs around, which, WTF? I can't quite do that, so I'll have to look for those that only need you to be able to haul around 25, which I can do. Either than or get a phlebotomy license, for some reason there seems to be plenty of openings there, though again, mostly swing or night shift.

I've only had a few phone screens and interviews recently, but I did talk to a few people at Western when I was "interviewing" there before being accepted, and I did interview a lot back when. I have never had anyone pretty much tell me my education and experience aren't worth shit, even when I interviewed for jobs that I was clearly underqualified for.
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I want a job.

I need to write a CV.

I am old and fat.

I have zip recent job experience.

I have no idea how to write a CV. I know I need to do a functional one, but I'm not even sure how to do that.

WAH.

OK. Deep breaths. I fucking earned that MS degree I can get a fucking CV figured out, right? Right? RIGHT?

Devolving into full panic.
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1. Commencement is done. Thank goodness. I was dreading the whole thing, positive I was going to trip over my feet or some such. I didn't, and it was mostly ok, though I know I looked super-stupid on the photos. I am SO glad I was able to do this, not just today, but the whole program. I absolutely loved the challenge. I need to figure out what comes next. I think a job, but I'm askeered to sit down and write my resumé with that Mariana Trench type gap. I got to see my advisor for a bit, I adore her.

2. Perry is ensconced at the AirBnB, he made his connections ok and was able to rent the car. Phew. That's been stressing me out. In retrospect, as soon as we found out the coach had Covid, we should have re-tooled assume Perry would be alone and made plans accordingly. It wouldn't have changed the end result, it just might have made Friday and yesterday a bit less stressful.

3. I didn't really want to acknowledge it at the time, but Friday marked 17 years since my dad died. I miss him often. My sister sent around a bunch of texts with photos and I just kinda didn't look at them until driving back today. He would have been so proud of me. Anyhow.
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Camera class this morning.

Gigantic pile of paperwork to be shredded to a shredding event at a nearby city. Last night, I kinda sorted through almost random decade of papers last night. Clearly we'd gotten rid of some stuff since -gulp- 2006, but some of the stuff was from then. There was some stuff, though not a lot, from the 2004 election. Fingers crossed I didn't get rid of anything important, LOL.

Then trip to Costco Business to pick up an office chair for dh. He's been borrowing Linnea's. Linnea's needs hers back.

Home to find out that Perry's coach is still testing positive for Covid, so Perry has to figure out how to get from Tampa to Sarasota.... and since the place he'll be staying is about 9 miles from the venue, how to get back and forth. Try renting a car as a 21-year-old without a credit card. It's pretty much not possible. We think we figured it out, but not 100% sure. Poor boy is going to be all by himself for the whole time he's there, the two other guys who were supposed to be there too didn't end up going (UW decided against letting them). And he's had to discontinue meds, so adulting isn't happening too well.

Then out to the railway museum to for the volunteer bbq. That wasn't as bad as it could be, I actually got to talk to a few people, the weather was fine etc.

Home. Dh and Linnea are getting Perry to the airport, and I'm making a Biscoff crust because....

Tomorrow is Commencement and I really don't want to go to it, but I am. I'm planning a dinner of croque-monsieurs, tater tots, and a Biscoff tart. We shall see. Nothing fancy, but Linnea likes it when I do things for myself like that (as in, she's always dismayed when I ignore Mother's Day, lol, and she was the one who asked that I go to Commencement at all, so.)

Exhausted. Worried about Perry. Dreading commencement.

Ugh. And I burned my knuckles on a cookie sheet making the tart crust. Feh.
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I just opened Excel for the first time since I finished my thesis, I guess, and was greeted with a list of Recents from all the data that I'd used.

Freaked me out for a second.

Then I remembered... ah... done. And I got my printed copy of the thesis AND my diploma in the mail the other day.

But really shudder.



The goal with Excel today is to divide my novel into chapters. I need to write page numbers and length. Then I need to figure out how to create them so they're real chapters in Word. That's SO much easier to do, apparently, when you do it before you start, which, LOL, no, I did not. Anyhow.
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Finally remembered to go to the website and check to make 100% sure my degree had been awarded. It had, LOL.

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I've turned back into a pumpkin... officially, I won't until tomorrow, but I took my personal stuff home from the lab, cleaned out some crap that I didn't need, and turned in my keys.

I'm very sad this is over. Despite the stress at the end, it was a good experience, and I learned a lot.

Next up I guess I start looking for a job.
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I'm not a grad student any longer.

WTF do I do with my life?

I can't seem to think about that while my eyeballs are itching, despite meds, but I need to start to narrow things down.

I do need to finish the novel I've been writing over the past year and find some readers to see if it's worth spending the time on a re-write/edit/whatever. I wish there was a place like AO3 where one could post original fic, retain copyright, and get opinions etc. Ah well.

Anyhow.

Damn. I liked that grad student gig. Until, of course, I had to actually show my work, right. I guess I'm kinda like Linnea. Don't want to deal with the interview, LOL.
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Since it took me freaking forEVER, I figured I was the last of my cohort to defend, thinking I'd just not gotten the announcements for the other two. Today was the last day possible and... yeah, two announcements, LOL.
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Oh my god, I'm done.

Umm.... WAH! I don't want to be done. I want to go back to being a lab creature. I liked being a lab creature!

Seriously, though, it went better than expected, and it wasn't too awful, I think I said everything I hoped too and I don't think I said anything egregiously wrong, yay me, LOL.

OMG, done.

Best part: because of zoom and how I had the screens, I didn't see anyone there beyond my advisor and my kids. I didn't even see David, LOL. Anyhow, I know other people attended, but I never worried about them.

And very clearly, one of the profs that has terrified me from day 1 in the dept wasn't there. Nor was the dude who always interrupts.

EEEEEEEEEK!
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Ugh, nausea, stomach in painful knots. Hands shaking.

And still 90 minutes to continue to ramp up the panic.

The nausea is the hardest part to deal with.
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1. I've sent the Zoom link for my defense to my kids and dh. I can't decide if I should send it to my sibs and aunt or not. I hate being vulnerable.

2. Spectacular timing. They've been getting worse over the past week, but now my seasonal allergies are in full swing, complete with itchy watery eyes. Perry, the other day, suggested allergy meds. The problem with those? They either hype me up or put me to sleep. And they don't work. Or maybe they do, but I'm either on a crying-and-cleaning binge or 3/4 asleep, and I don't notice.

3. Dh listened to me give my talk today. I've practiced 5 times total, three by myself, two with others. I hope that's good enough. I don't want to stumble too much, but I also don't want to sound too rehearsed, like I learned it all by heart. Deep breaths. Tomorrow. I'll be done tomorrow.
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With regards to my thesis defense on Monday... I'm at the tipping point of dread: I no longer went to it to be far far away in the distant future but rather as soon as possible so I can be done with it and move on to other things.

Also, small gift for my advisor or not? I can't tell.
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I'm a mess. I can't seem to fall asleep before midnight-1am, and I wake up at about 5 am. It's been like that for the past week or so, stress-related I'm sure.

I hate naps, they make me feel sick and out of sorts for the rest of the day. I was desperate enough this afternoon to go lie down to see if I could nap for an hour, but no dice.

Allergies are kicking my ass -nothing new this time of year- but I'm coughing and feeling miserable. I'm pretty sure it's not Covid (since this happens every Feb/March), but man, I feel grumpy.

Monday. I just have to make it til Monday.
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41 minutes.

I have an hour. Assume 5 minutes at the start to get settled and introduced, a 41 minute talk -first try- that leaves 15 minutes for questions.

Pretty close to where I'd hoped to be for the length.

At least that.

Tomorrow, I'll do a practice run with my advisor and iron our bugs how to Zoom with screen etc, and timing when I might be interrupted and there is an audience, and then I'll practice by myself a few times over the rest of the week.

Monday.

OMFG.

ETA Talk practice in 5 minutes. Sick to my stomach, want to cry or throw up, maybe both. FML. And this is how I feel for a practice? Holy hell, Monday is going to be bad.
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103 slides to my powerpoint.

Shoot me now.
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Slides, slides, slides.

I really don't mind prepping for talks, and when I am not stressed, quite enjoy making slides.

Right now, I'm semi-stressed, so it's not too bad.

But man, I tend to make too many slides.

And I have no idea what I'll do if an image on a creative commons license isn't ok to use.

Ah well. Tomrrow.
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Thesis is out for review, I've confirmed -or at least sent them, hopefully they won't send back, LOL- my defense date with the grad school.

Linnea has requested that I go to commencement, which is in June. I'm not sure, I hadn't planned on it, but she thought it would be fun, and reminded me that we'd pretty much forced her to go to her graduation, which she ultimately was happy she'd done, even if she was glad it was over. Ah well. We shall see. I never that in the US, so mebbe.
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Perry bought his girlfriend a teeturtle octopus for Christmas. I hadn't heard of teeturtles before then, but hello, octopus.

So I hit the website to find myself one. And immediately had A Problem.

See, like Clementine (I think it's from _The Talented Clementine_), my problem is not the choosing, it's the not-choosing!

There was a plethora of reversible plushie octopus to choose from and I could not, for the life of me, make up my mind.

It took about two weeks, and I finally got one (a few weeks later, I got another for a friend's kid. And I'm kicking myself for not getting ones for my niece and nephew for Valentine's Day.) I adore the things.

And since January, my octopus plushie has been sitting by my computer.

When she's in happy snowy mode, that means my thesis is being edited by Lynn and I'm off the hook.


When she's in bad cloudy mode, I've got the hot potato thesis and I have to deal with it.


I still haven't found names for her. Yet.

In other news, I've got a date set: Monday 28 Feb 12:00-14:00. Gulp. Remote.

And in no, really? LOL news.

I wasn't sure defense could be remote so I needed to make sure I had my dress clothes. Well, I'd lost my dress pants, grr, even though I know I saw them right before the holidays. Searched, could not find, finally have up and ordered a new pair from Lands Ends last week. Yesterday... I located the dress pants. They were under a towel I put on a chair for the cats to sleep on. I have no idea either. Of course today, the new pants show up, and I find out we're remote, so I didn't need them anyhow, because hello defending in my sweatpants, LOL.
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One of the things Marche brings up in his book (see above for details), is that America youth are not getting less racist. It's that... the younger generation is more diverse. I find that incredibly depressing. I'm trying to find a cite for that, since I listened to the book in audio. Finding a cite is not as easy as it sounds because I'm not finding search terms that are not so broad I get half the internet in response, lol.

Major stats ooops. When we talked about stats with my committee, we all agreed blah blah blah, but advisor was chatting with someone yesterday and yeah, no. Problem should be easy to correct, but jeeze, this was not the time. In pre-pandemic times, I'd have run the stats by a dude in the dept who is really good with them, and always helpful, but eh, Covid. Should be easy to fix, just need to corral some data. Adn thank god, no ANOVA needed because I think I would have cried.

My fault, I guess. I should have emailed the stats expert, rather than just chatting with my committee. None of them are stats experts.

Blah.

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