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nwhikerScared the snot out of me -I really really don't like medical people- and got my ass to see an NP today.
Rx for tirzepatide/Zepbound has been put in, waiting on insurance authorization.
Funny bit: they pay 90% after my deductible... which yearly is... about the cost of the meds, LOL. But hey, Linnea has to go to the ER last week (ended up being a panic attack, but she could not manage to get her heartrate down with her usual panic attack tricks/coping strategies), so we'll be hitting deductibles this year no doubt, we usually don't. Though maybe the meds paying will start kicking in once I hit my personal deductible, rather than the family one? Ugh, so confusing.
Anyhow. Fingers crossed. I really hope this works for me.
I should, of course, have gone earlier, but they didn't approve tirzepatide until late last year. But now I have to manage to lose at least 5% of today's weight in six months to keep the authorization going. I hope I can do it.
I hope I can lose a bit more weight. Another 20lbs would have me ecstatic, but more than anything, I don't want to regain everything I've lost.
I'm tired of fighting. I'm tired of always being hungry, of always have to think about food, I just want to not want to eat.
Some of the moralistic scolds who talk about weight loss drugs... these are typically thin people who do not know what its like to be fat, and who despise fat people, because they think their own thinness is due to their hard work and discipline so fatties get what they deserive, but also don't want fat people to get any help at all, so these people in the media -check out the Guardian to a whole bunch of them- play up any bad side effects of the drugs, but a few have penned articles about how tragic it was that these drugs made some people no longer want to eat, no longer take pleasure in food etc, and how that alone should keep doctors from prescribing them. Yeah, pretty full of their own privilege, right?
Anyhow. This is where I'm at. I am going to document my journey here, if only for myself, but after this one, I'll try to remember to put things under a cut.
Rx for tirzepatide/Zepbound has been put in, waiting on insurance authorization.
Funny bit: they pay 90% after my deductible... which yearly is... about the cost of the meds, LOL. But hey, Linnea has to go to the ER last week (ended up being a panic attack, but she could not manage to get her heartrate down with her usual panic attack tricks/coping strategies), so we'll be hitting deductibles this year no doubt, we usually don't. Though maybe the meds paying will start kicking in once I hit my personal deductible, rather than the family one? Ugh, so confusing.
Anyhow. Fingers crossed. I really hope this works for me.
I should, of course, have gone earlier, but they didn't approve tirzepatide until late last year. But now I have to manage to lose at least 5% of today's weight in six months to keep the authorization going. I hope I can do it.
I hope I can lose a bit more weight. Another 20lbs would have me ecstatic, but more than anything, I don't want to regain everything I've lost.
I'm tired of fighting. I'm tired of always being hungry, of always have to think about food, I just want to not want to eat.
Some of the moralistic scolds who talk about weight loss drugs... these are typically thin people who do not know what its like to be fat, and who despise fat people, because they think their own thinness is due to their hard work and discipline so fatties get what they deserive, but also don't want fat people to get any help at all, so these people in the media -check out the Guardian to a whole bunch of them- play up any bad side effects of the drugs, but a few have penned articles about how tragic it was that these drugs made some people no longer want to eat, no longer take pleasure in food etc, and how that alone should keep doctors from prescribing them. Yeah, pretty full of their own privilege, right?
Anyhow. This is where I'm at. I am going to document my journey here, if only for myself, but after this one, I'll try to remember to put things under a cut.
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