Not doing well.
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nwhikerThe good news: got an answer re the email I sent last week, about to start on a job search.
Well, maybe.
Because the bad news is that I'm not doing well. Usually depression creeps up on me (except PPD with Perry, when I remember the time and place I was when the world went from color to grey), and creeps away. This time I feel completely overwhelmed and miserable, and it happened pretty much overnight last weekend. It's not depression -yet- but it's.... as if some heavy nastiness settled down. There have been some signs over the past few weeks that I was, so to speak, trending down. Unexpected weeping. Difficulty with food. Complete inability to follow through on basic tasks. Having to read or listen to the same passage in a book about 5 times to make sense of it. The only thing that keeps my attention right now is fucking Candy Crush Saga (welcome to the top 2% of players Candy Crush told me. My dudes, that's not a good thing...). The other thing is that a mole I've had since high school has changed appearance in the past few months and I really need to get it checked out.
I dunno.
Anyhow. Have to get Anne-Chloe to read through my cv then I think I'm going to start applying for a few jobs. If I can muster the energy.
Well, maybe.
Because the bad news is that I'm not doing well. Usually depression creeps up on me (except PPD with Perry, when I remember the time and place I was when the world went from color to grey), and creeps away. This time I feel completely overwhelmed and miserable, and it happened pretty much overnight last weekend. It's not depression -yet- but it's.... as if some heavy nastiness settled down. There have been some signs over the past few weeks that I was, so to speak, trending down. Unexpected weeping. Difficulty with food. Complete inability to follow through on basic tasks. Having to read or listen to the same passage in a book about 5 times to make sense of it. The only thing that keeps my attention right now is fucking Candy Crush Saga (welcome to the top 2% of players Candy Crush told me. My dudes, that's not a good thing...). The other thing is that a mole I've had since high school has changed appearance in the past few months and I really need to get it checked out.
I dunno.
Anyhow. Have to get Anne-Chloe to read through my cv then I think I'm going to start applying for a few jobs. If I can muster the energy.
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