Stunned and hurting and scared.

A three crappy things for a Thursday in August.

1. Two very young women, daughters of women I deeply care about, are having health crises. Too young for that shit.

2. When I was pregnant with Anne-Chloe, I joined a mailing list (actually I joined two. This applies to both). It pretty much went extinct with occasional bubbles since fucking piece of shit Facebook but we still keep in touch via email. One of those women died on Monday. She was our list baby, the youngest of our group, not even 50. I'm stunned and hurting.

3. Linnea has been having some stomach trouble for... well, she's always had a sensitive stomach, but over the past few months, things have gotten worse, and it pings her anxiety as well. Symptoms are vague -stomach aches, shakiness, what she's been calling nausea but isn't- but pretty persistent. That said, even with all this, she's full on rowing without feeling weak while on the water. It's all very real but I can't see a pattern. We saw a PA a few weeks ago and his primary focus was on her admittedly crappy diet. Not my fault. I provide healthy food. She often chooses not to eat it. She cleaned up her diet -almost to excess- but something was still going on. First step was an H. pylori test which unfortunately came back negative. I guess next is a referral to a gastro. I'm going to request she be seen at Children's, of course.

Fuck this shit.